As outlined to you in Blog 188-”Trauma in Your Life;” experiences from your earliest days can lead to residual feelings that remain within you long after the initial events have occurred. These deep-seated feelings do not disappear but have a tendency to show up in diverse ways, often triggering serious emotional and physical reactions, such as: fear, anxiety, anger, sadness, depression, aggressive behaviour, addictive behaviour, feelings of unworthiness and hopelessness, a sense of inadequacy, sickness and disease and suicidal ideation. Your repressed feelings as a result of the past memories in your mind form the life experiences you experience in your worldly life and influence the choices you make throughout your life
Past events and experiences, (perhaps from even before you were born), become a part of your memories, whether you are aware of them or not. You may harbour feelings around life experiences long after they occur. Many of these feelings become entrenched within your mind, and sometimes they are reflected in your body as physical manifestations. Present circumstances may trigger your repressed feelings. The expression of your feelings may be unrelated to current life happenings and experiences. You may even feel disconnected from your feelings and not understand why you feel the way you do. You may choose to not recall past events that you find too painful to remember. You may decide instead to bury your experiences and your resultant feelings deep within your mind. Sadly your traumatic feelings and resultant emotions do not go away. All of your memories of your past experiences are confiscated by your ego which sees the need to protect and defend you from your past experiences and any individuals that it believes has or intends to do you harm.
From a spiritual perspective, traumatic experiences and significant events in your life can lead you to discover universal truths concerning yourself and the human condition. On a higher level, they can provide you with a great deal of learning, leading to your deepening understanding of yourself and those around you. Traumatic experiences may lead you to find answers that you may be seeking for yourself and others. As a result, you open the door to your awareness of your real identity as a spiritual being. Once you discover the truth about your illusionary worldly life, you leave yourself open to reinterpreting more accurately the impact that your experiences have had on you. By re-framing your life experiences to better reflect your reality as a spiritual being having a worldly experience, you begin to take the necessary steps to develop a different understanding of the challenging experiences you believe you have participated in. This leads you to seek out the forgiveness you need for yourself and others as you realize that you in fact created your worldly experiences . You begin to accept the truth that you have created a great drama within a dream of your life in the world for your learning and personal growth. Your awareness of this fact is the first step to your atonement, the undoing of your belief in your worldly life experience and the realization of your true identity as an immortal spiritual being in a relationship with God and All That Is.